“There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.”

I just love that saying. CS Lewis knew what he was talking about because every single day is better than the next if I want it to be :) and lately it has been so here's my update.

I just wanted to let you all know how ridiculously happy I am. I start school next Wednesday at Salt Lake Community College. My job's...meh, it's a job. And my love life is friggin' great :) as many of you know I'm dating this handsome guy

His name's Joe and he's my favorite human. He's my priesthood holding, movie watching, chemical engineering, tickle fighting, bunny/cat hair covered, Spenser loving boyfriend. And he's really good at making me happy.

Also, recently my cousins' girlfriends and I all became really good friends! Haha we're all kinda wives now...it's a thing :) We have rings 

They're both pretty great and I'm pretty stoked off my life to be friends with such chill girls. Considering most girls are catty, it's super nice to be around people who don't make you feel like you're back in junior high :)

Lately I've been thinking a lot about who I was and why I was that way and what has changed. And I realized that things changed because I wanted them to. I didn't like where or who I was and so I changed it. Looking back I always got exactly what I wanted. I didn't feel good about myself so I didn't look for good guys. And thus, the guys I got were kinda crummy. Yeah they had their good bits but there was nothing about them that I would have wanted to keep for forever. I wasn't a really good friend, and so I didn't get really good friends...until Summerlin came along that is :) I just love her! Everything I wanted I got. Because on the outside I was saying, "I want better friends.", "I want an amazing boyfriend." While on the inside all I was thinking was, "I'm not good enough for better friends.", and "Boys don't like fat girls, guys like that don't date girls like me." But there's a joke that my friend Kara from work told me that I think is relevant. "How many psychologists does it take to screw in a lightbulb" "none the lightbulb has to want to change" still gets me every time :) but it's true! No amount of therapy can help someone who wants to be miserable. And I was tired of being miserable.

So yeah :) now I'm happy as a clam and I couldn't ask for more! I am so blessed to belong to a religion that believes that progress is never ending. Because I plan on seeing the better things that lie ahead for me :)