Modesty=Respect

WARNING, THIS IS A RANT! I wrote this a while ago, but it's something I feel I should share on my facebook. It's nice to know that I have someone who respects me enough to want me to respect myself :) I got lucky, so here it is.

For a long time I felt really stupid because I couldn't wear a bikini. It wouldn't have been a good idea anyway because I was fat, but I felt like all of the guys only admired pictures of girls in bikinis. No one has dropped their jaw at a girl in a one piece since Farrah Fawcett. But being with Joe I realized that it was something he was grateful for. That he didn't have to worry about seeing anything he wasn't supposed to see at the beach in California, and more importantly that he didn't have to worry about his MOM seeing anything she wasn't supposed to see. Because as easy as it is for girls to say, "boys should control themselves", it doesn't help a person on a diet if you constantly wave chocolate bars in their face. 

Modesty is an important part of my life because it isn't all about how the world is going to perceive me, but it's how I perceive myself. There's a quote that says,"Immodesty shows insecurity." And we live in a world that tells us the opposite is true. Like "the more you show the more confident you are!" Being immodest is uncomfortable, not because I'm not comfortable with my body, it's uncomfortable because when you sit down on a chair, you shouldn't be able to feel how cold it is on your hind quarters! And quite honestly, no one wants to see your breasts hanging out of your shirt. And anyone that does, does NOT respect you.

And that's my next point. Modesty is about respect. It's about respecting the people around you, and most of all it's about respecting yourself. You don't have to go giving the goods away to people that haven't earned them. YOU ARE WORTH WAITING FOR. You are worth the work, and the time, and the love that comes before you decide to give it away to someone who LOVES you. God made someone for everyone, and He loves you, and He wants what's best for you. That's why He sent you here.

I know this post might ruffle a few feathers, but I had to put my feelings out there. If you post bikini pictures, bootie pictures, or super cleavage pictures, consider yourself unfollowed. Because not only do I not want to be scrolling through my news feed and have my boyfriend see that, but quite honestly, I don't care how good you look, I don't want to see it either. If you wear that in your free time cool, but don't make it so public. Like I said. Being modest is about respecting the people around you. And I get that you've worked hard for that body of yours, but please, keep it to yourself. Because you can look just as beautiful with clothes on. And if you're doing it for the likes, are you really doing it because you love yourself? Or because you know if you dress a certain way other people will show you love. True confidence does not come from the clothes you wear or the pictures you post, it comes from knowing God loves you, the love you have for Him, and the respect you have for the body He gave you.

Thank you.

Okay, I'm done.

Clearing Your Plate, and Why It Has Got To Stop

The holidays were good to me, but bad for me. We'll just say that to start off. And since the holidays I have started at a new job in downtown Salt Lake City. While working at said job, I'm pretty sure I've gained like 5 pounds...I've been there three weeks. And I already gained 10 pounds with all the junk food that came with Christmas. Every day I look in the mirror and hate what I see. I hate that I'm right back to where I was. I hate that I was so motivated but when people are shoving every Christmas food at you, you feel obligated to take it. We live in a culture where fat shaming is acceptable, but in the same tolken, we think people are rude if they refuse to take to food we offer. Thankfully I'm back on track and have complete faith in my ability to lose it all over again. But this crisis I wake up to could have been avoided.

I have a real problem saying no to food. Mainly because when you grow up a little bit lower class, you are taught to clear your plate and not be wasteful. Don't get me wrong we're plenty on our feet now, but when your little and have a single mom, she's gotta pinch her pennies. Food is expensive and you shouldn't throw away food when there are "kids starving in China." Well I say we kick that habits as adults, there needs to be a line drawn between clearing your plate out of politeness, and saying "I've had enough, I'm going to stop eating now." This is the reason most of  America is overweight. We have got to start listening to our bodies rather than just going until there is nothing left on our plate. Don't take more than you should eat, and if someone gives you too much, push the plate away when it's done! And let me tell you, I know how hard that is because I didn't do it this season, and look what happened.

I'm currently training for a half marathon, and the only thing running does is make me hungry. But it's good for me. And spending my lunch hour running makes a huge difference for my work day. But honestly I could eat a whole bag of Doritos after a run and not even feel bad, I should feel bad, but I don't. Because I have desensitized myself to how it feels to just be "done eating". It's like unless I'm stuffed, I haven't eaten enough. And that is no way to live. Anyway, I just wanted to share my thoughts with you all, and remind you that there is a way to say no without being a jerk or feeling bad. Because when you're doing what's good for your body, your body does good things for you :)